Late.

I'm too late for it.... my FYP... Still undone... Stuck...
But I believe miracle... It'll be done on time...
In the other hand, not so good... I'm easy get frustrated recently... Maybe there's too much undone...
I want bring her go movie... but i couldn't... i hope everything are going to work fine and I can bring her for the movie this weekends...

HATE!

Arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate it so much!!!! Why just can't everything be nice??? Everyone is thinking that I'm that BAD!!! I can't do my work!!!!!! I can't finish it!!!!!!!!! ERGH!!!!!!! SO freaking failure!!! Keep my farking mouth shut!!!!!!!!! I hate it so mcuh that i destroy a beautiful morning!!! Why dun just have a big stone and blow up the whole world now!!!! Hate myseld so much!!!!!! I'm going to crazy!!!!! I duno how to speak out all these stress!!!!! My farking car is damage! My freaking gate is spoiled! My project is undone! I'm hungry and felt like vomit! Whole body felt itchy! My head is so pain! My eyes are in red, tired and painful......... Whole body muscle pain... Everything i plan doesn't work!!!!!!!!!! I hate to see my gf is sad!!! I hate that I'm bad to others! I hate that my gf seeking ppl help to do things instead of asking me to do! I hate that i can't teach my gf a better english! I hate that I said those words that make people sad! I hate to be misunderstood by others!!! I hate that I can't speak properly ad people duno wat I'm talikng about!!!! I hate I can't express my feelings but just can act like a spoiled child... I hate that I can't stand up and do what i should do!!! I hate that I such a junk!!!!! I hate that I can't wake up in the morning and forgot about what's wrong yesterday!!!!

I hope to turn back time that the world is still beautiful and without the existing of me....I just turn the world into messed...

x.x

OKay!!! I was just a farked up bf... a loser who duno wat happen to own gf... Rather to being like a small child than a person who can protect or provide secured comfort lever for his own gf...
Really felt like a loser and giving up.... Never had these felt to give up... but things strike continually... academic progress, health, family, relationship, career, financial.. most importantly -- life... was once live with full of self confidence, I think I'm great with the personality that I'm having... I was once the cherries person who help others when they're having problems, rise them up when they're down, giving them advise and talks with them when they're all alone and helpless... Today, I felt like I'm not that person anymore... I don't know why... I was so farked up... I used to so proud of myself... Recently, I just hate myself for having such mind set... WHY I got those mind set??? Why dun i just think things like normal peoples... Why the fark i want to think things so detail? Why so care of everything?? As I know nothing is perfect but why stll i want things to be perfect??? Even having a meal, non of even 1/5 of a small little rice must not to waste??? Can't stand my own attitude either... Asking back, how could I give others love where I'm hating myself???

Even my friends are getting lesser and lesser... Friends are there, but Its like a hundred years ago since I really hang out with them.... Feelings that my world is closed... Just myself.. alone... I have my gf around, but I couldn't face her sometime... I felt disappointed at myself ... Don't know why I always make her feels unhappy... I couldn't get in the situation that she is having... Some time, she rather keep her own feelings or talk to her friend... I don't really know her feelings some times, I didn't do my part as a bf, and i still acting like a childish person... She ask other people to teach her things rather than asking from me....I was just a bad person to be a bf... just a useless creature...

Felt myself is a junk... I hope GOD can help me, sadly, some times i even doubt the existing of GOD, but I know GOD is there, and GOD will help me too...

*took a deep breathe* telling myself not to give up... Stay alive!!!

Hopeless...

I think that I'm really hopeless...
Please tell me!!!
What can I do??
Just hate myself in this kind of situation...
Hate myself for all these stupidity...
Want to stop all these...
Worries so many things...
Urhh....
Thinking to give up everything... I mean EVERYTHING...
But I still keep telling myself not to give up ANY!
Keep in mind the positive might make things better.... hope so...

Design.

Just saw some people works on the web and so called 'graphic design'... *shake-head* Got a feelings want to train up the staff to a better lever of handling these software. Especially the hardest people to be train by ourself, gf... It was a common issue with teaching gf new things... It normally lead to a fight... hahaha! But still, I'm not giving up... =)

Hopeless.

I just found myself did or said something really really stupid... A pure breed sohai...
X.X

被撞

就有预感会发生，真的发生了。

今天，我的车被撞到了。
担心放在哪儿会有人碰到，傍晚就想到把它给移进室内停车场，但学生都还没放学，没有空位，只好晚些再移吧。哪知，不久，就听到有人喊“乓”接着，熟悉的alarm声就响起了。。。 我急忙冲去房间去看个究竟。。。 啊！！不是吧！！那么多人围着我的车子！果然，我的车被撞到了。。。