Sunday, August 30, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
好人 vs 坏人
我选择了做坏人，是因为可以让人做好人。
有人说这世界是很完美的，只是看一个人市镇么过罢了。。
我认为，那人只是在逃避现实，因为事实上没有东西是完美的。。
以上两句话都有涵义在，还记得一个朋友对我说过：
“道可道，非常道，名可名，非常名，
无名天地之始，有名万物之根”
要明白这个“道”，不是那么简单，就好像好人与坏人，完美和不完美，我也只敢说我了解了一点点。
有人说这世界是很完美的，只是看一个人市镇么过罢了。。
我认为，那人只是在逃避现实，因为事实上没有东西是完美的。。
以上两句话都有涵义在，还记得一个朋友对我说过：
“道可道，非常道，名可名，非常名，
无名天地之始，有名万物之根”
要明白这个“道”，不是那么简单，就好像好人与坏人，完美和不完美，我也只敢说我了解了一点点。
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
七夕
Remember the special day doesn't mean anything to me...
Today i got my chance to make a wish...
I wish I can wish more than a wish...
I wish you Happy...
I wish you will realise something you not realise...
I wish it's not too late for you to realise it...
I wish there's no "too late" in this world...
I wish myself to be Happy...
Today i got my chance to make a wish...
I wish I can wish more than a wish...
I wish you Happy...
I wish you will realise something you not realise...
I wish it's not too late for you to realise it...
I wish there's no "too late" in this world...
I wish myself to be Happy...
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Day-05
Today, I had a sweet dream again… I felt that the world in my dream continues… I dreamed we are happy together, as we get back together yesterday… Or maybe there’s another world exists? We never know… or maybe there’s a world exist among everyone, in their own mind, their own world, the world they dream of… How about yours? Do you ever think of that? Hahaha…
I love to take photo… not always in the picture... I’m the photographer… I hope I can capture every moment… it allow us to remind and never forget the moment, happy or sad, every moment is treasured… For me, photographer is a story teller… we tell story through pictures… What in the picture is what a photographer sees, it is a visible, tasteless, soundless and motionless memory… but it still allow people feel the moment being captured… Photographer captures and tell story of the world, but they never see themselves… They can’t see themselves through the lenses… another photographer tells their stories… Sayang, be my photographer, tell my story… and tell me story…
The best lens is not the one you can see the galaxy; is my eyes...
The best camera is not my camera or the most expensive one; is me...
The best lens and the best camera are useless without something to capture… You are what I want to capture… you complete me…
I love to take photo… not always in the picture... I’m the photographer… I hope I can capture every moment… it allow us to remind and never forget the moment, happy or sad, every moment is treasured… For me, photographer is a story teller… we tell story through pictures… What in the picture is what a photographer sees, it is a visible, tasteless, soundless and motionless memory… but it still allow people feel the moment being captured… Photographer captures and tell story of the world, but they never see themselves… They can’t see themselves through the lenses… another photographer tells their stories… Sayang, be my photographer, tell my story… and tell me story…
The best lens is not the one you can see the galaxy; is my eyes...
The best camera is not my camera or the most expensive one; is me...
The best lens and the best camera are useless without something to capture… You are what I want to capture… you complete me…
About love
What is love? I don't know... In the pass, I told her I like her... like her very much... I don't have to courage to say I love her...because I don't know what is love... till now, I think I understand...
As i know... Love can be in many forms, it can be an energy, emotion, feeling, many more... It's the biggest force in the world... A mother can sacrifice everything including their own life to save and protected their children... Because of love, parents work so hard and feed their childrens, send them to school, not because of it is necesary...they alway hope for the best for their childrens... Love, allowed a person to help a stranger who meets problems... Because of love, a person forgive another person no matter how wrong te person did...
Since "Love" can be in forms of an energy... the law of conservation of energy states that energy cannot be created nor destroyed... so do love... For couples, husband-and-wife, love does not exist even trough make-love... It's my fault to miss lead my friend about it... Making-love can increased the love feeling of both person, only they are truly love each other... It always being misunderstood by many peoples... We call sexual intercouse as love-making, but it don't really makes a love...
"love is a thing that makes u happy and makes u who u are" -Kev
**please take note that the above statement about "love" is yet proven & it only base on personal oppinion.
As i know... Love can be in many forms, it can be an energy, emotion, feeling, many more... It's the biggest force in the world... A mother can sacrifice everything including their own life to save and protected their children... Because of love, parents work so hard and feed their childrens, send them to school, not because of it is necesary...they alway hope for the best for their childrens... Love, allowed a person to help a stranger who meets problems... Because of love, a person forgive another person no matter how wrong te person did...
Since "Love" can be in forms of an energy... the law of conservation of energy states that energy cannot be created nor destroyed... so do love... For couples, husband-and-wife, love does not exist even trough make-love... It's my fault to miss lead my friend about it... Making-love can increased the love feeling of both person, only they are truly love each other... It always being misunderstood by many peoples... We call sexual intercouse as love-making, but it don't really makes a love...
"love is a thing that makes u happy and makes u who u are" -Kev
**please take note that the above statement about "love" is yet proven & it only base on personal oppinion.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Day-04
This morning, I had a dream… In my dream, I back to my old house… it still look like the old time… I dreamed she talk to me… she said: "Hey...Why don't we..."I quickly say: "get back together" She nods her head and smile…and mean a "yes"... I quickly put her in my bosom… Happy ending… OMG! I can’t believe it! I’m so excited! And I awake… I wish the moment can last, but I know it wouldn’t… I still remember she told me about what she dream, she got terrible dreams, something she don’t wish to happen, she told me she’s scared… I told her not to scared, because the dream will not come true… now, the dream came true… so I think my dream will come true too!
Few days ago, I saw her post and say she is very unconscious… I didn’t ask about it… Her friends comment on the post… she still able to making fun of it… that the best part… She is always being positive… admire at her… hehehe… Sayang, no matter how unconscious are you, I’ll be there for you, leading you to the right way, taking care everything for you, protect you from any harm…even you are not… I love you…
Friend: If there’s a period for everything to be fine, I guest it will be weeks to half a year..
Me: I hope is seconds… I’ll still work very hard for it…even it might take X over nought seconds…
Never give up! So do I, so do everyone... ^^
Few days ago, I saw her post and say she is very unconscious… I didn’t ask about it… Her friends comment on the post… she still able to making fun of it… that the best part… She is always being positive… admire at her… hehehe… Sayang, no matter how unconscious are you, I’ll be there for you, leading you to the right way, taking care everything for you, protect you from any harm…even you are not… I love you…
Friend: If there’s a period for everything to be fine, I guest it will be weeks to half a year..
Me: I hope is seconds… I’ll still work very hard for it…even it might take X over nought seconds…
Never give up! So do I, so do everyone... ^^
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Day-03
Today, I just submit assignment for one of my subject. It’s a CAD (Computer Aided Drawing) subject. I have to admit I’m quite good at it, but I faced a very serious problem, I don’t know what caused it, maybe it’s a computer bug, the drawing keep undo by itself, things suppose to be rounded-edge keep changing to an sharpened-edge during re-open the file. I fix it again and again since days ago, still the same problem…I’m frustrated… My lecturer allowed me to submit the drawing without what it supposed to look like… he say he will still giving me the mark I deserved. And then only I realized that everyone is facing the same problem! But I insist, I want to do the best, it should be what it supposes to be! At last, the bugs still exist, but I got my way to overcome it! I might be the only person with the correct work (hope it is really correct la)… I realized: When there’s a problem, we might not able to solve it… problem can’t change, we change ourselves, try different ways, solutions is always waiting for us…
She still seems don’t want to talk much with me… Months ago, our relationship is not like the old time, I tell myself everything will be alright… A week ago, we are having very good time and happy together… I though everything is getting better… The coming holiday, I can bring her to the place she wants to go; showing off to people how sweet we are…No, things I never expected is just happened… I asked why, she told me it’s not my fault, but I know, it’s my fault, I did many terrible things to her… It’s too late for me to regret… It’s no longer the same anymore she said… Things keep changing; of course it will not be the same all the time… History pass, future is in our hand, I’ll make sure it goes fine…
That day, I asked for a last one… a very last chance… She gave me thousands of opportunity, I never make used of them… This time, she said no…Now I realized, this is the chance! She just pressed the reset button… a button that giving me opportunity to do what I never did all these long… It’s not easy to fix things that go wrong… she made an easier way for me… Start everything from zero… Like a messed up essay, it took times to erase or fixed when it was out of topic or write wrong… What she did is give me a new paper, what I need to do is just do it in a more proper way, putting back the good stuff, not repeat the same mistake… No need an eraser which make more dust, even left any messed up mark on paper… Or, no annoying cross lines on the mistake, or messy liquid-paper stains… What I need is a sharpened pencil, writing finer words; more attentive… longer lead, thousands of words to be written; be more patience… A lovely essay will appear in the end; that’s life!
She still seems don’t want to talk much with me… Months ago, our relationship is not like the old time, I tell myself everything will be alright… A week ago, we are having very good time and happy together… I though everything is getting better… The coming holiday, I can bring her to the place she wants to go; showing off to people how sweet we are…No, things I never expected is just happened… I asked why, she told me it’s not my fault, but I know, it’s my fault, I did many terrible things to her… It’s too late for me to regret… It’s no longer the same anymore she said… Things keep changing; of course it will not be the same all the time… History pass, future is in our hand, I’ll make sure it goes fine…
That day, I asked for a last one… a very last chance… She gave me thousands of opportunity, I never make used of them… This time, she said no…Now I realized, this is the chance! She just pressed the reset button… a button that giving me opportunity to do what I never did all these long… It’s not easy to fix things that go wrong… she made an easier way for me… Start everything from zero… Like a messed up essay, it took times to erase or fixed when it was out of topic or write wrong… What she did is give me a new paper, what I need to do is just do it in a more proper way, putting back the good stuff, not repeat the same mistake… No need an eraser which make more dust, even left any messed up mark on paper… Or, no annoying cross lines on the mistake, or messy liquid-paper stains… What I need is a sharpened pencil, writing finer words; more attentive… longer lead, thousands of words to be written; be more patience… A lovely essay will appear in the end; that’s life!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Day-02
I think this blog will be more like a diary for me, for me to record and express my feeling. OK, today, I received an SMS from her. She hopes that I will work hard for my future... and face my life positively. I told her, I’m! I also asked her for a chance for us to be together. She didn’t reply for that, and I’m not pushing her to do so too... I will wait for her answer. In the evening, I called her, just to hear her voice, it really….. [Speechless, I’m just happy].
Yesterday, I played a cassette, a gift from her, it's her favorite artist-- Jay Chow’s album. I listen to the songs and sing all the way I drive back to my college. It made me felt that I’m in the song; lyrics tell everything about my feeling, so close... I couldn’t sing anymore, I insist, but my body couldn’t... I want to be with her immediately…hugging her...never loss her...
Talk about singing, karaoke is one of our favorite activities... Her voice is very sweet... voice of an angel for me... For me, I sang badly... I don’t really know how to sing, she trained me... I like to sing because of her... and I sing better now... Every time I go to sing with friend, I wish that she is there, I love she sing, love her voice... Few weeks ago, we planned to go karaoke, but due to some work, we didn’t go... Now, I just wait for her to sing with me again... She is like voice to me now, I can’t sing without her... Just 2 more weeks, semester ends; short break coming... More free time…can go karaoke…with her... Just wish and pray for everything goes fine...
She: moved forward
Me: me too... (=>)
Yesterday, I played a cassette, a gift from her, it's her favorite artist-- Jay Chow’s album. I listen to the songs and sing all the way I drive back to my college. It made me felt that I’m in the song; lyrics tell everything about my feeling, so close... I couldn’t sing anymore, I insist, but my body couldn’t... I want to be with her immediately…hugging her...never loss her...
Talk about singing, karaoke is one of our favorite activities... Her voice is very sweet... voice of an angel for me... For me, I sang badly... I don’t really know how to sing, she trained me... I like to sing because of her... and I sing better now... Every time I go to sing with friend, I wish that she is there, I love she sing, love her voice... Few weeks ago, we planned to go karaoke, but due to some work, we didn’t go... Now, I just wait for her to sing with me again... She is like voice to me now, I can’t sing without her... Just 2 more weeks, semester ends; short break coming... More free time…can go karaoke…with her... Just wish and pray for everything goes fine...
She: moved forward
Me: me too... (=>)
ps: This picture took me almost a day to post up, I just keep trying and trying till I succeed. I'll do the same for my life, I'll never give up easyly...
My Sayang
I know her on the 1st year of my secondary school. She is my classmate. Her First impression for me is: "wow! She is a very nice".. at all spec.. (Nice looking, polite, friendly, good academic record, lots more…..) My friends always bully her.. so do I.. She is very friendly and playfull as well.. She is very popular in school and got alots of friends.. 1 day, her friend meet me in school, and ask me why I bully her? What can I say? Well, I said: “I’m sorry.. I just play play ma..” My bad.. Since that day, I very seldom bully her or even near her.. OMG.. such a weak boy that time.. Haiz, I have to admit.. and I know I got no reason to bully her.. just playful ma..
Few years after that, I start to admire her more and more.. I told her when I got a car, I’ll bring her to see Ferrari – her favorites car that time.. I’m kind of a introvert traditional boy.. I try to approach and talk to her more… Near end of that year, I had a girlfriend after some times ago when I know she actually having a relationship..
During the final year of my secondary school, final is near, everyone study harder, most of us having group study everywhere.. The year a group of friends become closer and closer.. We study together, eat together, have fun and enjoy all the time.. Of course, the time me and she is hanging around more often.. She taught me math, and help me in my studies.. she gives lots of support to me, and friends.. very nice person..
Few years after that, I start to admire her more and more.. I told her when I got a car, I’ll bring her to see Ferrari – her favorites car that time.. I’m kind of a introvert traditional boy.. I try to approach and talk to her more… Near end of that year, I had a girlfriend after some times ago when I know she actually having a relationship..
During the final year of my secondary school, final is near, everyone study harder, most of us having group study everywhere.. The year a group of friends become closer and closer.. We study together, eat together, have fun and enjoy all the time.. Of course, the time me and she is hanging around more often.. She taught me math, and help me in my studies.. she gives lots of support to me, and friends.. very nice person..
Monday, August 17, 2009
Day-01
After some emo time, I feel better. Tears whipped out the dust maybe..I see things clearer.. but I'm not very sure about it la.. Talked to some peoples, they all care about me.. feel happy.. I'm going to give the same feeling to the one i love.. everyone.. i meant it.. start now..
I find that she left me because she felt want more freedom.. she can always got it.. all there long.. and in future... i think she just got herself some problem, everything will be fine.. because I believe nothing is IMPOSSIBLE.. Every problem got it's solution.. I changes very fast.. I used to put anger on a person suddenly with "no reason"(actually got la) when we are happy together.. Same at this time, I can become a better person in a very short time..
Changing my attitude is not impossible.. I'm strong, like an immune system, when there are more virus attack, i'll grow stronger and stronger.. I love you..
I find that she left me because she felt want more freedom.. she can always got it.. all there long.. and in future... i think she just got herself some problem, everything will be fine.. because I believe nothing is IMPOSSIBLE.. Every problem got it's solution.. I changes very fast.. I used to put anger on a person suddenly with "no reason"(actually got la) when we are happy together.. Same at this time, I can become a better person in a very short time..
Changing my attitude is not impossible.. I'm strong, like an immune system, when there are more virus attack, i'll grow stronger and stronger.. I love you..
Begins of new life. Day-00
16th August 2009, Sunday. A day i got a big challenge of my life. A day I never wanted it to come. A day I never ever think to come. i always wanted to start a blog, to express my thought, my mind, my happiness, of course, the hard time for me.. In my opinion, there's not a good thing to show the world about sad things happened on me, no reason to make the world more sad or so called touch? Today, I started this blog, the 1st day of the real challenges of my life.. I'm going to get a girl's heart back... I'm don't think I'm a good blogger or good in writing, I will try my best...
People always say:" Treasure while you can, it's too late for you to regret when u can't..".. Yeah, treasure every moment while u can, but did I? Yes. I did, but not enough.. and with the improper way.. As my friend say, when God give you the best thing in the world, God can take it away anytime... I think God is taking away what I got.. Besides my parents and family members, there's a girl who loved me, care of me, and protect me all the time.. 16th August, she say that she wants to leave me and be alone for a moment.. It's because all these long, she's too tired of what she had done for me.. I refuse, she insist.. She said she wouldn't blame me if i hate her or disappointed with her, and ends with a sorry.. Sayang, I never hate you, or disappointed with you, you are everything for me.. You are the one I love most...... Just that i never say out or show.. I'm sorry too.. Please come back..
People always say:" Treasure while you can, it's too late for you to regret when u can't..".. Yeah, treasure every moment while u can, but did I? Yes. I did, but not enough.. and with the improper way.. As my friend say, when God give you the best thing in the world, God can take it away anytime... I think God is taking away what I got.. Besides my parents and family members, there's a girl who loved me, care of me, and protect me all the time.. 16th August, she say that she wants to leave me and be alone for a moment.. It's because all these long, she's too tired of what she had done for me.. I refuse, she insist.. She said she wouldn't blame me if i hate her or disappointed with her, and ends with a sorry.. Sayang, I never hate you, or disappointed with you, you are everything for me.. You are the one I love most...... Just that i never say out or show.. I'm sorry too.. Please come back..
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