15-07-2010

A day start up with very very good mood, everything goes fine....

but it ended up with again... argument and disappointment...

Yup, just because of some I don't know what it is....

And yup again... I failed my subject and I can't graduate!!!

Sometimes Most of the time, I felt I'm the best man in the world! I'm the luckiest boy on the planet! I'm got the BEST things in the universe! And just right at the moment of enjoyment, ME, standing at the top of the world, falling the the darkness at the bottom of the valley... I feel like to cry, my tears couldn't be hold... but I need to keep telling myself, no, I'm not allowed to do so... It happen all the time... 

It feels like you got everything on your wishlist & it end up with you wake up it just a dream. When it's a dream, maybe you wake up again in the next morning, you will never remember what you dream today... But life is not, things happened and it's like dragging you in the Hell... You feel miserable on your life but you couldn't do anything or no body can help... 

It was so hard impossible to avoid things-you-don't-want to happen... Maybe there's a way... I believe there's a way, I trying very hard to work on it.... It just don't know when can I still keep my mind clear and still own the strength and spirit for it... Just hopping for the best that I could have....

I got these thought.

Life get miserable when:

...you want some thing, and u can't get it... or even got the chance to have it...

...you tried everything to avoid something happen, and it HAPPEN!

...something works on every single person in the world, but not the one you love most.

Sunny day came after the storms... but, storms come after that too...
It must be a storm there... but please not that often please...
I might say every party will be the same...
Just which side or point of view you are standing at...
You did something, for someone;
Others will also did something, for someone too...
Some times, just that we only see things in a point of view.
It's not just about ME.
You will never know what peoples have done for you...
You might say you know that, but we will never know we we really knew.
I's not everything can be define or can be describe through words...
Some times, things we wanted things to happen will just like people sitting there and hopping for the world will not end by it times...

Day by day, my times are running shorts...
Some times, I just feel that I need to seek for a psychologist...
Maybe they can help...
Maybe this can give me more times...