15-07-2010

A day start up with very very good mood, everything goes fine....

but it ended up with again... argument and disappointment...

Yup, just because of some I don't know what it is....

And yup again... I failed my subject and I can't graduate!!!

Sometimes Most of the time, I felt I'm the best man in the world! I'm the luckiest boy on the planet! I'm got the BEST things in the universe! And just right at the moment of enjoyment, ME, standing at the top of the world, falling the the darkness at the bottom of the valley... I feel like to cry, my tears couldn't be hold... but I need to keep telling myself, no, I'm not allowed to do so... It happen all the time... 

It feels like you got everything on your wishlist & it end up with you wake up it just a dream. When it's a dream, maybe you wake up again in the next morning, you will never remember what you dream today... But life is not, things happened and it's like dragging you in the Hell... You feel miserable on your life but you couldn't do anything or no body can help... 

It was so hard impossible to avoid things-you-don't-want to happen... Maybe there's a way... I believe there's a way, I trying very hard to work on it.... It just don't know when can I still keep my mind clear and still own the strength and spirit for it... Just hopping for the best that I could have....