I'm just pathetic.

When I was needed, I'm always be there. When there is something else, I no longer important, everything is my fault. I never be the right one, never... Life is unfair, it never be fair too... I just swallowing my voice... I can't imagine the day when it burst... But does it important? Who cares? I'm just someone passed by... I don't feel my existent is important... I'm just pathetic... I live too much for other... Where are the part for myself? I just choose to give it to others... I live in others life than myself... But people can't see... Why is people think I'm selfish? I'm really not... I think of others before I do something... i did really do things for someone, not for myself... I really don;t like the way people look down on me... Some time, I just accept the fact, yes, I'm useless... This is why I did nothing...

Right, just don't care what I said here... Please don't even give a damn on it... I'm just sad here & write some nonsense... I'm sad that people can do all sort of things, as they like! In another hand, I can't even do anything where it never be a wrong thing to be done... I never blame this to anyone... I just did it on my own will...

Weddings.

Editing couple's weddings photo... Looking at their happy face... their united & happy family & friends... and they're so happy to get married... but I felt like it is getting far and impossible for me....

My gf.

I think my gf are the best! She is very good. haha!

P.S. I love you.

mei you yong

Again, a lonely night...

Dui.. wo chen ren wo bing mei you yi yang shi hao de... shi mei you yi yang! yi qian, yi lu yi lai, dou ren wei wo you wo de yiu dian... jui jin, ta gao shu wo you na me de bu hao... da me duo de que dian... zhi ji fan xing yi xia, dou zhan tong... jin tian de wo, dou shi zhi ji yi shou zao chen de.

you shi zai xiang, wei shen me ta neng yi ge xing qi he ta na ban tong yang de peng you chu qu ne... yiu bu shi hen jiu cai jian yi chi... ye mei you shen yi tan... lian wo you wen ti ta dou bu dong... jen gao bu qing... you shim hen xiang you ren gao shu wo...

Jin tian ba shuo de wo hen dui... wo di que hen duo que dian... dui bu qi, ba... rang ni men shi wang le... wo hui jing liang juo dao jui hao de...


to be continue...

mei gui

mei gui yi chi y chi de ci shang le wo de shou... dan, wo ren ran mei fang qi...

man shou shang hen lei lei de, wo hai yi ran mei fang qi... jian qi wo de guan nian... wo xiang jiu ru wo na tian yu dao de yi ge cheng gong ren shi shuo shuo de... zhi yao jian ch zhi ji de jia shi guan nian, chai neng cheng gong de you yi yi... wo jue de, na guan bie ren jue de wo juo de dui bu dui, zhi yao wo xin li shi zhen de, wei shen mo yao guan na xie xian ren xian yu ne? ta men zhi chi xi huan feng chi bie ren, ye ying wei ta men de bu dao na fen zhen, jiang zhi ji de xu, zhi ji pian zhi ji, dang shuo hen wei feng... hen duo shi hou, ren bi ren, bi shi ren... wei shen mo wo jiu yi ding yao he bie ren gei de na xie yi yang? jiu lian chi fan zhi you fu yu pei fan ye neng shi de hen kai xin ma! wo bu guan bie ren you duo fu you, qu na li lu xing, mai xie shen mo, wo zhi neng zai guo nei klu xing, wo ye neng hen kai xin ya! jiu shuang zhi zai gong shi gong zuo, zhi yao he xi huan de ren, guo de xun li, kai xin, ye hen man zhu ya! you shi, zhi ji ye zhe jue de, bie ren de hao, wo men ba ta fang da, ta men zai bei hou de ku chong, shi wo men kan bu dao de... bie ren zhen me xiang wo, zhen me kan wo, xian zai de wo, ye bu guan le, ying wei wo zhi dao wo zai gan shen mo, ni men shuo kan dao de, ye zhi shi wo de qu ke... gen ben wu fa kan dao wo de zhen xin...dao jin tian, hai shi mei you yi ge ren neg zhen zheng liao jie zhen zheng de wo... jiu shuan shi jui hao de peng you, kou shuo ta men ming bai, den ta men ming bai de, you you ji shen ne? dau jin tian, zai mei ge ren de yan guang, hai shi na me de shi bai... dang wo jian qiang de shi hou, you shei hui cheng kan dao ne? kan hui wo de bu luo ge, shang xin de dui ji ru shan... ying wei, wo ba bu kai xin de dou fang zai chi chu, kai xin de, tong tong liu zai xin li...

bie ba wo kan dao na me bei, ni men zhi shi kan dao wo bei de yi mian, ying wei, wo ba kai xin de, dou liu gei zhi ji he wo ai de ren... huan rao zhe wo, mei ba ta men fang jin zhe shang xin bu luo ge...

p/s: bai she mei gui dai biao wo dui ni de chuen... Dear, shi zhou yue kuai le! wo ai ni!

22-09-2010

What i want is just to make you happy.. I don't want to miss every single chance to doing things that you like me to do... I tired my best to packed all my stuff and make me some more extra time to be with you...

And every time that I feel she is great, that moment, will the beginning of some shit...

I felt like I've shifted place with some one she hate... I'm the bad person now... I'm the one she don't want to answer my calls... I'm the person who talks bad things...

p/s: I know i shouldn't speak like that... Maybe i was just tired... I run here and there all day... Just though that can have a nice talk but I don't know that I'm disturb you watching TV... I'm sorry dear...

中秋节快乐！

17-09-2010

hai ji de yi bu cha bu duo yi nian qian... ta shuo hen xiang lian wo... wo zhen yang ye chou shu shi jian, qu pei ta... you shi hou, yao ta deng wo hen jiu... shen zhi shi ji ge zhong... mei chi ta chu men, wo dou hui jing liang standby wo de sh jian... jin chuan li qu juo yi ge 24 xiao, bai frn bai de hao nan you...

jin tian de wo, deng le yi tian you yi tian... hao bu rong yi chai deng dao na tian, jiu zhai bei tui diao le... yi tian yiu guo le... yiu zhai deng ming tian... hai jing ran zhi ji na mo ben.. na mo tian zhen.... hai yau shi zhui hou yi ge zhi dao... zhe cie nian lai... jiu lian shen me lian shen me jia dou diu le... jui hou, hai shi zhi ji juo chuo le.... zhen de hao wu tui lu la... bu shi hen xi huan zhi ji shi yi ge thinker... xiang tai duo... lei de hai shi zhi ji... yin wei xiang dao de, ye wu fa shuo chu kou, bu shi mei dan, shi huan bu chen yu yan biao da chu lai...

dao jui hou, wo hai shi na ge shi bai de... wo bu guan ren jia zhen yang kan wo, pi ping wo, bu dong wo... wo zhi xi wang ni neng gou ming bai wo... dan wo zhi dao, bie ren shuo de, jiu bu neng bu li hui...

hen kai xin ni neng enjoy... you shi xin xiang, qig yuan xi shen zhi ji, jiu rang ta qu kai xin ba... bu neng guan na me duo de... zhi yau ni kai xin... wo ye shi hao ba na xie xiang fa guan qi lai ba...

p/s: dang dao le quan shi jie mei ren xu yao shi, na ge shi hou ying gai shi li kai de shi hou ba...