Lag.

I'm too far away to the life that I wanted to be. Too far away.... It is something that in a totally different world. Very different level of life.

Some how, blogging is like a way to release stress for me... throw out everything not happy here... Put up my though and some nice things to remember too...

If I'm in the wrong train, it will be like a never turn back trip... even taking another board to back where I actually wanted to, it still will be different. Also, different timing already, everything still going to be changed.

I was not being negative or what, ya, obviously my English is sucks... I can't help to make instant improvement... Everything I'm doing is like dragged behind... everything being postponed. Hate my own attitude... I know there're good side of mine, but some time people is stubborn, doing wrong things even they did know the consequences...

Smoker.

Still remember those days I farked up with my friends because they smoke. Even I scolded my relative who are smoke too. So you think that you who are not even my friend expecting I'm so generous to accept the way you all smoke and even sit beside me? Go to HELL u all smokers!

Unwell.

Felt like vomiting...

Surprised.

I was sooooooo surprised... There is 1 comment on my blog! The first ever comment since this blog was created. so touched... Realized that there're people around visit to my blog... Thanks for the concerns... =)

Better.

Regarding to the previous post, I did a little bit over-reacted on the phone... Due to I felt that I was always ignored... OK, trying yo be chill when some negative things strikes... Maybe a simple reply or conversation can solve most of the problems... okay, she just called me back to see if I'm okay... It's help a lot to calm me down... I appreciate it.... Thanks...

Things will works better when time pass... It's all about understanding between each other... Communication in between is very important... Less words which lead to war & a little bit more polite way in conversation can reduce the damage between relationship...

Write a blog is not that hard, but in report, it seems to a little bit tougher... It's time for me to continue my report... omg...

Pissed.

ARGH!!! I'm going to crazy soon!!!

It's something that bother me since months ago. So the dead line is getting close... and when it was closer & closer, some how my attitude made me kind of hard to control my actions... Have to keep it secret, make sure everything goes fine, other stuff are ready for it too... lots... Trying so hard to be patience...

Today, i get news that I have to spend extra money for other peoples too... And the one who make this decision tell me that it just a joke when i ask for the confirmation of this incident. So am I a joke? I was told that I made almost all decision no matter others are agree or ok with it. What the? Did I? I just propose, or suggest, then peoples will always like: oh, since u want, then do so lo... Did I say I must want it to be like that? Am I that ego that made every decision by my own? I just know that there're times that I was told to do something, but then I'm need no more for that thing, and I wasn't inform at all... so I clear all my schedule, for that, and it end up with just sit there and wait. This time, it's like everything settled and I should do it as a must where I never been told or discuss about it... I was surprise... Urh..... Okay, since it have been decided, maybe I can do a little more budget and cut down all my other expenses, I think I still can do it... Just that It might be some tough days after that.

Months passed by, at last, I've made my decision that what to get. This is something that I not even buy for myself before... Have to save a lot of money for it, even have to let go some plans. The good news is, it came to town earlier than expected! Great! It just came in the right time... So I doing some survey about it... Tried so many places and sources... Still can't get it... Waiting for calls... It have to arrived in time... Hope everything go fine...

Plan is there, but there're plenty of other stuff going on around and have to solve too... I think this really made me a little bit crazy recently... Not eat well, not sleep well, so emotionally... EQ is getting lower... Some more I am acting weird where I never did so before... omg... Just like a baby too...

Patience, patience... I think everything that I do is worth to be... Everything will be fine... Just thinking that person will be very happy & will be touched is enough to keep me on track... Hold on! You too be patience!!! Hahaha!

The thing that I heard most, would be:

"Doo doo... doo doo......... the number you have dialed, is currently not available"