一路以来，我都错了。

11-02-2010

It have been a long time since the last post here. I want to post some thing all the time, it’s not that I’m too busy… Every time I open up the page, my brain was blank out. I don’t know what to write… what to express…

Day after day, when ever I got something pop up on my mind, I can’t remember it long. When there’s something I want to express, I didn’t post it out… I just read it out words by words, in my mind.

Today, she talks to me... tell me things bothering her... Tears came out of her eyes... She was upset, disappointing and helpless... Nothing much that I can do... I hold her hand and calm her down... Hope that someone can know her more... that really really know what happen... Not that they just though they know but actually misunderstanding what's going on...

Me, I was not in a right mood since few days ago... I tried to clear all schedule for the three continues days for the birthday of two very important person in my life. Which are yesterday and tomorrow. Today, supposed to have a dinner with Pam's mom and send her to airport. Pam and me hope that we can make it since few weeks ago but that time I can't confirm my new time table. This week, i got my new time table, no class today but morning classes tomorrow. We can go for the dinner together and a little farewell at the airport tonight. Schedule are fine, everything is on. Yesterday, I was informed that dinner is on but without us, sending Pam's mom to airport will done by someone else. Everything was just canceled off with unknown reasons. And I was claimed or complained that I'm over controlling Pam... And something that sounds like I'm making every decision for Pam where she got no rights to voice out... WTH?

Waiting.

I waited and waited,

It doesn't appears,

There's nothing much that I can do,

I just wait again.

Again and again,

I might not be there to wait anymore...

沟通

不同时候，以不同的人，有不同的沟通方式。。。
我和她，也有不同的沟通方式，来沟通不同的话题。。。

很开心，她越来越了解我了。。。
当然，她也让我更了解她。。。
一些放在心里面，不肯定的东西，
也解决了。。。

虽然我知道，但我还是犯同样的错。。。
对不起，我不够体谅你。。。
谢谢你告诉我，我真的越来越欣赏你了。。。

我为你好，

却被你骂。

谢谢。

Something new.

It's a day I first meet gf's mom...

In a mall...

I saw her before my gf found her...

We go shopping...

My impression is that,

She's still her little girl...

Their relationship is getting a little bit complicated..

But still, she's her mom...

We went to have dinner together...

It's the first time i dine in that restaurant,

It's a famous restaurant,

but I giving them a 3 stars rate only...

Service is good, foods are fair,

Environment is fair,

Confortable is abitt low...

Is that as counted as a parent meeting?

But it allowed me to know them more...

But we have a fine dinner still...

After dinner, we went shopping...

I'm a bit tired, and i got some thing hidden...

So I'm showing a bit harsh...

I'm not really that fine actually,

but i some how I not really that agitate...

Felt a bit self-abased...

Went home, she din't felt well...

We talks... we shared our opinion...

She's quite strict and not allowed me to talk bout her family...

Then, we're going fine in the morning next day...

... to be continue...

*speechless*

You can go on everything you want to do!
I never stop you from any..
Just follow your way in everything...
Now, I'm just the worse person in the world...
Just to let you know what i think,
you just tough i was complaining or not supporting...

I put my work aside for you...
I waited... with patients, where i never have...
waited and waited, plan everything for you for your best,
And everything just "GREAT"...
means nothing are done...
Every thing i plan never works,
where every time you asked me to decide!

And you blame it all on me...
Thank you!!!

I was happy today, and I'm not now...