The thing that I heard most, would be:

"Doo doo... doo doo......... the number you have dialed, is currently not available"

CB peoples...

Like this also scold, like that also scold... Like they very 'big' like that... Ask people treat also like people must do everything to suite them... They work and get paid every month also still want to use people's stuff... share something with them still get scold from them... Ya, even some stuff got it free, so what? It still her stuff what? Want to use still want to find problem to argue... So 'smart' buy yourself la! People's stuff more nice, then go borrow o use... Fark! so 'clever' go borrow people's husband lo! CB! Even your few hundred ringgit is so big meh? Your present very expensive meh? People also didn't ask for it... but why want to say till like people asking for it? Always do stuff double face... 'friend' with u here and stab people's back at behind... Always flatter on other people, like they very good... Another one, even worse... Never take a mirror to look at them self... Like they very 'beautiful' like that.... what an rotten egg inside.... Only got excuses... ask them do work they got something else to do... Never work for the promises... So arrogant.... giving fake promises all the time... When people get trouble, they never give any help as their promised... even drop more stone on you... Stubborn! never listen people's advises... brainless human... Eat too much & drink too much! Lazy! Even worse and a brain-retarded pig! Only know how to make story behind, gossip around... Always fool around and cheat people to pay bills... Selfish! Always borrow people stuff to use! even they can't fit in! Fark! Like them self are very socialise people... Only know some morons.... Tough them self are Shakira and actually worse than a retarded blinded old fat chimpanzee swinging around mud.... All of them are born with a pair of dog eyes... look down people... When people get something very nice which they can't get or.... opps... they not deserve to be more suitable... they usually will find something to spoil people's great time... when they got problems, they only know how to make them self look pity... and most of the time, they are "innocence"... pui! What so big with your money? When people treating you all nicely, never feel thankful to people, even worse that still complain here and there... When people getting trouble, just stand there and see people die... Ask people to shut up, double up your pillow tonight and try use your remaining brain to think think how yourself is la!

Just felt unreconciled for a person who born to have such peoples around and received undeserved treats...

SAU PEI LA! CB peoples!

**try to put smaller wordings to make this blog a little bit less negative feel**

Depression

Saw a TV show talks about this sickness syndrome. I found that the problem I'm having recently matches some of the symptoms of this sickness... I worried about mom too... She have more matches of the symptoms...

Money matters.

It seems to be just a money matter... Why must all decisions always made by money come first? How bout life? love one? families? Yes, I can't denied that for the world we live in today, we are barely survive without money... But why? Money is really more important than anything else where it should be come in the first place to making a decision?

Choosing a far-a-way resort which meals and accommodations are provided and just to skip some transport fees and a little rental fees? It's really less money to be consumed to choose a such way? Is that only that few matters to be considered? Is that simple? So it's like a bird is rather to choose to stay in a cage than need a little harder effort to find food around?

It seems to be you made your choice since the beginning... Maybe I was think too much.. Maybe i just though that I'm thinking really that detail? Or just my stubbornness keeps me stand still at my point of view... But still, how if I'm right too?? Maybe I'm totally wrong, what the bird choose is freedom and it really get what it wants... not that as i see it was in the cage... I don't know...

I wish that I could have that large amount of money now and problems solved... You get everything you want... And I have no need to worry that is there any decision made wrongly... Or I did the wrong decision or give wrong advise... I am selfish... who's not? Maybe there is someone...

I also wish that there's some one here to talks to me, guide me and tells me what's right, what's wrong... Gives me advices at least some comments... I think is more likely for something that I wish to be happen...

WHAT AM I DOING???!!!

WHAT AM I DOING???!!!

WHAT AM I DOING???!!!

WHAT AM I DOING???!!!

WHAT AM I DOING???!!!

WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT I'M DOING????

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL CB HKC I'M FUCKING DOING?????

AAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"I was just about to bed! THAT'S IT!"

误解

被人误解，不好受。 可以说任何东西来解释，可以是事实，也可以是谎言。很容易人误解，给他人假象，让人误会？可能因不想那么快让人揭晓，揭开的太迟，也就这样，不合时的惊喜，悲剧发生了。

我只是随着心情，顺其自然吧。。。词汇有限的我，不善于表达，难于将思考的，转化为文字，或表达出来。 好想能有一个链接电缆，毫无隔膜地让人阅取思想，观念，性情，或在想什么。。。

我很想说出来，但不懂怎么说呀。。。

Illusion.

Things always not as what we see. Do you think that what you see is really what you see? Hahaha... This is science... You looking at a printed material, there're pictures on it... What you might sees might not be what you really sees, the picture is not a picture actually... That colourful 'picture' is just a combination of only four different basic colour fine dots... This can be said as an illusion. So as words, news, story, anything... Things look differently when you see it in different angle or view. When a signal is sent out, different medium gets different information.

It is not "A memorial for an end of a relationship".

It is "A memorial for the begins of a new life".

Who cares? This is why misunderstanding are alway occurs... There's no prevention of it... same as war... Who's right who's wrong? Why must give a damn on it?